Our Lady of the Southern Cross
I got really into personal development when I was going through depression and it led me down a long long path and into the spirituality/new age world. Where I became trapped in a never ending loop of healing work. But the more healing work I did, the more empty I felt.
The more I learnt, the more questions I had. The more I discovered, the more things didn’t add up. I researched day in and day out. Thirsty for the truth, feeling like I was so close but so far, to finding what I felt I was missing. One day I was reading one of the many many books I had read by one of the most world renowned psychics and I became curious to know what she looked like so I googled her name.
The first thing that came up was an announcement saying she had renounced all her work and had given her life to Jesus. In that one moment my world stopped. It felt like time stood still and my heart burst open. I instantly knew that Jesus was what I was looking for and He had been waiting for me all this time. I was convicted so deeply I feel to my knees in tears and automatically started praying to God. For days I felt Jesus close to me and comforting me while I navigated this big moment.
I then threw out all my angel cards, tarot, pendulums, books etc all the things I had depended on to make decisions and started going to Church.
Within days I learnt of many other women like me, who were in the spirituality/new age world and gave it all up to follow Jesus. My husband thought “oh here we go, here’s another fad she’s following” but as time goes on and as I’m writing this we can safely say it’s not a fad haha. I can’t even begin to explain what Jesus has done for me in my life, it’s so hard to put into words.
He has shown me miracles, given me a sense of peace my soul has never felt before, opened doors in ways that has been breathtaking and most importantly He has quenched my thirst. I now know what I was looking for was Him. I don’t feel like I am looking for something or missing something anymore.
One of those miracles has been my journey with the Alpha course.
Speaking about your journey and your faith can be so so daunting and at Alpha, it felt like home. A place that was safe and loving. With Jesus and other Christians from Church and Alpha, I have been shown grace in a single moment, offered several shoulders to cry on, arms wide open, been supported and loved unconditionally, my addictions broken, received a fresh renewed sense of self, people freely giving their time and resources with sincerity and witnessed so much love and compassion for others.
I am so grateful for Alpha and Jesus and feel like the woman who is forgiven in Luke 7:47.
