Life Church

What’s the toughest question you’ll ever ask yourself in life? For me, it was: What is the meaning of life?

I never really knew. I had my goals, my plans — and that was about it. But what made me important, beyond just existing in the matrix of life?

Growing up, I enjoyed being the person who seemed to care about everyone — the guy who came across as wise beyond his years. But deep down, I still felt lost.

I eventually became known as “that guy,” the one people turned to for insight. Yet I didn’t understand where this knowledge came from. Why were people listening to me ramble? What value did I truly offer?

I had many passions growing up, and psychology was one of them. I was fascinated by how people tick — how their minds worked. The human mind and its construction always left me in awe. At one point, I even believed that people’s concept of God was just a construct — a product of their deep-rooted need to be ruled by something or someone (shoutout to Loki in Avengers 2012). But eventually, I realised I was doing the topic an injustice by not seeking the truth through proper research and reflection.

That’s when I found Alpha.

It was the first place where I felt I could bring my skeptical, questioning mind and actually look for answers. Why do people follow God? What’s so compelling about an ultimate authority?

Little did I know, it was all about Love.

The psychologist in me began to see the thread of God’s love woven through the Old Testament — a love for His chosen people — and how that love expanded to the world through Jesus, fulfilling and transforming the old covenant into something new and universal. I never imagined there could be a space where I could question, explore, and even challenge the idea of God — and yet still be met with love and clarity.

That first step led me into a journey of discovering what it means to have true joy in life — a joy explained in the Bible.

Alpha sparked my exploration into something far deeper than I expected. Strangely enough, it wasn’t even my first time at Alpha that I came to faith. It was over a year later, outside of that space, that I truly opened the door between me and God. But I needed that starting point. I needed that room to explore freely — and most importantly, I needed to start asking the right questions.

So, back to the question: What is the meaning of my life?
Simple. I live by God’s Word because it connects me to a force in this world that holds all the answers. Striving to live by His Word and grow in relationship with Him has helped me see the world with a beauty I never had before.

And perhaps the biggest realisation? People were listening to my ramblings all along because — even then — God was with me. Now, all I want to do is continue drawing closer to Him.